Tuesday, 21 December 2010

Where has that month gone?

Yet more snow photos!!!

Sorry.

I can't believe that it has been a month since I last wrote a post.
In that time.  5 amazing puppies have gone to the most fantastic homes.  I have been so chuffed that they have all kept in touch so I have seen pictures of the puppies.  They all seem to be so good.  Mmmmm...... Lily, do you hear that!!  But I miss them.  More then any other litter I have raised in , Ooooh, 10 years.  I wish I had kept one.  The one that clicked for me in the last week was the little girl that they called Ruby (yes I also wanted to keep one of the boys - I know, I know!!)
My cottage has under gone an amazing transformation.  The stairs are boxed in (sorry Lily, no more going upstairs!!!) and the wall between the lounge and the hall has gone, so now I have a lovely open lounge.  Just need to paint once the plaster has dried and make curtains for the front door and small window.  My Bedroom is coming downstairs.  Not more attic stairs to negotiate in the middle of the night.  And - cringe (for some) but I can have Lil to keep my feet warm!! ALL my craft stuff is going to go up to the attic.  Jose and I can have a massive - fun - craft room.  I am not making things to sell any more, I want to make things for me and friends.  It seems, I don't know if you agree, when you make things with selling them in mind you forget to make some of those things for yourself.  It can almost loose the whole reason we make things in the first place.  Well, that's what I think anyway.

I have GOT to try and keep my house a bit tidier.  Tomorrow I go with a friend to pick up two nice sofas that I brought on e-Bay for £25!! (must be Christmas) Although I am not sure if they will fit through the cottage's front door!!
 I also have got a new phone with the most amazing camera on it.  So now there should be no reason not to blog more often!!
Some crappy personal stuff, which has made me question some aspects about my life, and taught me a few lessons, made me just that little bit more cynical (and slightly more un-trusting) but hey ho, it is what makes us not only stronger but who we are.  So it is not all doom and gloom!!
I love my dog, my kids, my cottage and my job, but there is something missing.  The J's are growing up and I feel sometimes a bit like a spare part, like they still need you, but no longer REALLY need you.  I guess it is the start of the empty nest syndrome (yuck!!) but I would think that for someone who is part of a couple or a complete family unit, that means that you just get to know one another a bit more, better or what ever.  For me, as I know my partner Lily like the back of my hand so it has made me think more about what I would like out of life.  Made me wonder what 2011 will bring.
 My boy has been picked by The School of Rugby.  Two things Mike and I did right was have amazing kids.  Strong willed, pig headed switched on kids.  They are at that wonderful stage in life where what ever they want is obtainable.  Deep down I envy them that future, but I know that I have to make mine in the same way they will make theirs (for the first time I can put what I want at the top of my list - although that isn't so easy when you think about it).  I want to work full time, to do a job that I feel rewarded in, sort of whole (Yes Yes, this time of year always makes us feel mellow dramatic!!) I also would like a decent wage! (who doesn't when you have bills to pay, a house hold to run) I totally love the job I do now, but there are not really full time hours available.  I have a regular night now and the lady I work with is fantastic, (I could learn an awful lot from her)  But something just niggles, I miss being outside, I miss working on my own (!!!!!).  So I have started to think of other things.  They sacked - sorry -  let go the Gardener they employed (instead of me!!!!!Ha Ha!!) so that job is coming up.  But this last week has made me think differently about applying for it.  But I have applied for a post as Dog Warden.  I know I don't stand a chance but it was good to fill out the application form.  To think of all the positive bits about yourself.  To try to sell your self.  I want my cake and eat it really, I want to keep the hours I have at H.H but to do another totally different job as well.
Who wouldn't want to work for the benefit of these all day, along with the good bits, the sad bits, the not so good bits.

Me and my girl, I don't need anything more then that.  Together we are a team, a relationship that needs each other to work. 

So here is to 2011, a fresh new year.  I hope that everyone enjoys Christmas with the differences that the weather will make.  We are alive, hopefully healthy and have a whole new year to look forward to.

For that we are so very lucky.

Colette & Lily

10 comments:

  1. Love the photos of Lily in the snow. Here's to you both having a fantastic 2011.

    Libby

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  2. Hope all your dreams come true in the new year. Love your photos. Merry Christmas Love Lesley x

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  3. You always write so honestly, and I think that's a gift you have (one of many!)

    I'm keeping my fingers crossed for the dog warden job, but I'm glad work isn't too bad.

    Great pictures - Lily looks beautiful.

    We're hoping to put Jazz the B&W springer in pup (we have enough workers that need to bring on young dogs now to give them away, and keep a girl for ourselves). If you get puppy withdrawl, come over and have a squidge!

    I hope you get everything you're looking for in 2011 x

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  4. Wow you have had a busy and thoughtful month. I hope 2011 brings everything you want :-)

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  5. Glad to hear that the puppies are all doing well, it's nice that the families have kept in touch with you so you know how they're doing. Your cottage renovations sound exciting, especially the new craft room. Merry Christmas to you too, I hope 2011 brings all you wish for.

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  6. Love your beautiful snow dog!
    A very Happy Christmas to you and yours. :0)

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  7. A very heartfelt post Collette. As my nest is emptying, I have been so glad to have hubby to pick me up when I have been low, but I imagine a brisk walk with lovely Lilly will have the same effect. Your cottage looks gorgeous in the snow. Have a lovely Christmas. xxxxx

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  8. Wow, it sounds like you have the New Year's resolutions in mind already. I know what you mean, children growing up makes you start to think of your own needs again which have been shelved for so long. I agree about making stuff to sell, sometimes thinking what will sell can mean making something that doesn't come from the soul. I only make stuff that I love so that when/if it doesn't sell, I get to keep it for myself. Happy Christmas to you and Lily x

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  9. Hope the new year brings you joy and happiness in all that you want and need.

    Take care, enjoy those lovely walks, and enjoy that crafting in your lovely attic room (I'm SO jealous!)

    Merry Christmas!
    Sharon x

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  10. hello my lovely

    adore these pictures of lily in the snow

    greetings from a very wet somerset xxx

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