Monday, 27 December 2010

What is it about 2010

This year.  I have to say that I am looking forward to saying good bye to it.  I have a gut feeling 2011 is going to be better.  It has to be really.  Ashley's baby is due at the end of January.  Jose will be 17 so wants to start driving. Jasper has been picked for The School of Rugby. Good, positive things.

But 2010, pretty crap really. This is Socks.  She is 15, tomorrow I say good bye to her.  She is filling up with fluid, her breathing is painful to watch.  She no longer looks like this, like she did in the Summer of 2009, she now is skinny, matted as she can't groom herself and to brush her hurts her so much.  But she still purrs.

She is my last link to the life I used to have, I know it sounds daft, but this bundle of fluff came home when life was good, Jose used to dress her in baby clothes and plonk her in a pram, Socks loved it.  She is such an affectionate cat.  She has always dribbled, strange how that seems to have stopped at the moment.
Seems crule to play God like this doesn't it - or does it.  Because lets face it if she was human, we'd shove her in a hospital bed, keep her going until her body fianally gave up.  Till she was so scared because breathing was a battle, till she slowly drowned.  Often alone.  At leat I can prevent that from happening to my beloved cat.  But so soon after loosing Cleo.  Jon is coming back to my cottage tomorrow to help my cat slip away peacefully.

21 comments:

  1. Ah bless your heart-i really feel for you, our cats Darcy and Hermione mean the world to us and we got them when the children were little so they'll grow up together as socks did with Jose...I think you've been very lucky to have such a wonderful companion in your life...you are doing the right thing, although i can understand your heartbreak...And, i agree 2011 WILL be a better one
    Lots of love, Kirsty xxx xxx xxx

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  2. You are doing the right thing by the sounds of it, like you say at least she will go to sleep whilst being loved and she won't be scared. If you leave her she may go in the night alone and scared as she can't breath so really you are making the right decision. It is such a hard one isn't it :-( Take care and virtual hugs to you. xxx

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  3. Such a sad thing to have to do - but I agree it is the right thing I'm sure. I'm hoping that 2011 is better for you too Collette. xxx

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  4. Absolutely .... please help Socks to slip off peacefully. I know it isn't easy..I did the same for two of my oldsters.... at 22 and 21... my little brother had never known a life without them when it had to be done. It's not right to keep them going for our own sake. Sending you a hug....

    How I wish we could do the same for the people in our lives that we love... and yet...at the end we can't make them comfortable at all most times. It's just all wrong.

    Vee
    xxx

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  5. I'm sorry for your loss, but you are doing the strong thing and a final kindness for your cat.

    Here's to a happy 2011.

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  6. Socks is such a beautiful cat, im so sorry you have to say goodbye to another friend. It will be hard but its for the best if she is struggling, but at least you can say your goodbyes knowing that she will always love you. Cats are just wonderful at giving their love.
    My heart goes out to you all x x

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  7. At least we are able to let our dear animals go peacefully,even though it is heartbreaking to make that decision.So very sorry..it is so painful to be parted from our little soulmates.
    Wishing you much happiness in 2011.

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  8. It is such an awful decision to make but they look to us to make the right one and I am sure socks has had a lovely life with the family and she will always be remembered.
    Thinking of you,
    love
    Lyn
    xxx

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  9. i know its hard, but you are doing the right thing - far better for her to go now rather than suffer - i hate playing God too, but i think its a responsibility we take on when we have pets. Our winnie is 16, a beautiful cat who still looks really young - but she is thin and doesn't groom herself and hates being combed as she is soo sensitive - we are taking it a day at a time, but i know her time is coming to an end.

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  10. Sending loving thoughts at this awful time. My pets are so precious to me so I can only feel for you - I hope her passage goes peacefully and with gentleness love annie xx

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  11. I'm so sorry to hear your news, I do think you are doing the right thing too, much better than prolonging the pain and suffering.
    I too have had to make that decision, it is a very painful one.
    Take care. xx

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  12. It is sad to take decisions like this, but I really wonder if it is cruel. I think the 'human' part is far more cruel. I wish you all the best in saying goodbye, and also, for the new year; let it be a better one!

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  13. I'm so sorry for your loss. These decisions are so hard to make even though they're for the best. How cruel to be parted from two of your friends in such a short space of time, I'm sure 2011 can only get better. All the best.

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  14. Oh you poor thing, you're certainly having more than your fair share of grief, I don't blame you for wanting to see the back of 2010. Here's wishing you some much needed joy in 2011 x

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  15. I'm so sorry Colette. I know just how you feel. Hoping 2011 is a better year for you. All the Best xxxx

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  16. dear Collette

    i feel for you

    it's a kind, brave and loving thing to do for you sweet furry friend x

    i am sure 2011 is going to be good to you, i just feel it

    love and hugs

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  17. I'm very sorry about your cat. I hope that 2011 is going to be a great year for you. I was reading back some of your old posts - love the crochet granny blanket - you have good colour sense.

    Best Wishes,
    Primrose.

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  18. 2011 WILL be a much better year for you.You had some lovely years with socks and looked after her better then anyone else would and you are right to not let her suffer anymore you know when the time is right,thinking of you as im an animal person too and they are part of the family so I know how much it hurts but she will be right there with you in spirit watching you have a fantastic 2011 x

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  19. Hey Colette, just checking in to see how you are, hoping the new year is better for you xxxx

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  20. So sorry about your kitty Colette. I agree with you about 2010, not a good year. Saying a prayer for you for a wonderful 2011.

    ♥ Melissa~
    Pink Paper Peppermints

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  21. Sorry about Socks. It's always sad but you gave her a good life. I'm really looking forward to 2011 and instead of waiting for it to be a good year I am going to try to make it one. All the best.

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